Tough times and life's still happening outside my window
what if you, just for a minute, stop caring about what happens tomorrow?
Unstable times are an absolute nightmare, no matter how tiny the things that affect us are, they still affect us — mood, energy, thoughts, will — the feeling of not being in control of things can be tough for some (for me) , and allowing the universe take its course it’s just not easy.
As probably anyone nowadays, I struggle with common life tasks, it can get overwhelming and it sometimes it bothers me how easy it “lands” for others— but in reality, what really bothers me is that I tend to complicate my life even more, by adding pressure and complains through my thoughts.— Worrying for things that are out of my hands, tires me soul, and leaves me seeing everything through negative lens. — not a fan of that. I do not recommend.
Today — after waking up early, going up and down the city, running the craziest errands, giving it all for my near future — I got some news that were not on my favor. I felt tired, and I wanted to give up on trying to make things work for me.
I took a nap instead, and for being a person that really hates sleeping during the day, it meant I truly needed it.
A yawn… I woke up an hour later, with a sunset coming through my window, and a brain less heavy — what if things don’t go your way but way beyond your thoughts instead? … what if you just for a minute, stop caring about what happens tomorrow? — and a stretch…
I get off the couch, make an effort to see the view outside of this house, for what it is — the color of the sky without a meaning, the family walking by, without a meaning, the dogs and the plants, without a meaning — it’s all just happening, besides my discomforts and inner critics. It gives me comfort, that life it’s more than what is going on with me.
I remember what a friend recently said:
“No te pongas en la mentalidad del todo o nada… agradece por esa sola cosa que dices que es la única que esta bien” = “Don’t fall into the all or nothing mentality, be grateful for that one single thing that you say it’s the only thing that it’s fine right now”.
A simple, gentle yet big reminder to me, for when times are not peaking — and so I did, while standing at my window, looking down to the streets where more life seemed to be happening, I whispered a thank you, to all those strangers for the smiles on their faces, to the sun for going away with such a graceful trace behind, to the dogs for being… perfect.
Yes, I always end up romanticizing the “silliest” things (I accepted that ) and this is probably more of the same, but it works for me. As a human, I go down valleys and up mountains, and only through finding beauty in the whole view, I find my way back to the center of my soul, where peace is hold and the joy is reborn.
The point in writing this is for it to find its way into at least one person’s core and serve as a reminder when they most need it, that things will be fine and they just tend to go crazy before getting better. — A reminder to look outside the box of their worried minds and instead whisper a thank you to the silliest beautiful thing they see when they look up.
Our heart is ready.
and she whispered… “thank you, for reading”.
Nicole <3